Usually I take a few side notes before writing a blog post, but I want this one to be a bit more free form.
This month has been rough for me.
If you don't know me personally, I am generally a happy-go-lucky, go with the flow type of girl. I love working on my art, helping people, and trying my best everyday. But despite my best efforts and all the hopes and prayers I've received this month, it's been a bit of a nightmare trying to get back on my feet.
Last March, I lost my job due to COVID-19. I was working in hospitality, and that industry really took a hit. Since then, I spent most of 2020 collecting unemployment checks while trying to revive my Etsy, my blog, all that good stuff. I also took some time to relax, reflect, and play games. Last October, I found a job where I can work 10 hours a week and make some pocket change. It's been a very fun experience, but it's obviously not enough to live off of.
I live alone, I have a cat to feed and bills to pay. So I've spent the past year back on the job hunt.
I've had a few pretty good leads in the last few months, and even an opportunity from on old friend that fell into my lap. It was a great, high paying job that would set me up for a great future.
Despite my best efforts, I was rejected from the position.
This news only hit me yesterday, and I am still processing the rejection. I can go into all the nitty gritty details, but I don't really want to.
What I want to do instead is tell you that I am making a commitment to myself to do as much as I can to make a living from creating art.
Art is my passion. It's the only thing I'm good at, and it's what I feel like I'm destined to do. That may sound dramatic, but it's true. I've interviewed and worked at several jobs at this point and found myself good at them... decent at them. Good enough to not get written up at least. I have war flashbacks whenever I think about the shenanigans that happened at my last job.
Don't get me wrong, I still have to pay bills, so I'm not gonna sit around and play games all day. I am making a commitment to create a schedule for myself in order to produce the most high quality, compelling, and rewarding content that I can.
That includes Etsy, Patreon, this blog, TikTok, Instagram, and Twitch. Yes, Twitch.
I'm not gonna promise anything specific here, but I will for sure be back soon with something new to share with you. Hopefully it will be a little more uplifting than this post.
I will leave off with this: if the signs are pointing to something, it's best to follow them. It may lead you to something good.